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xiahua — Sun, 17 Jan 2010 16:00:45 +0000

without passion
we won’t survive

Einstein once said;
‘Genuis is 1% talent and 99% percent hardwork’

there are those who try with everything they got and fail miserably without achieving nothing

and then there are those who do absolutely nothing and get the world

i dont know… so the ones who fail, are they missing the 1% of talent?

blah.
anyway, i’m feeling rather depressed and happy @ the same time. i don’t know how to explain. just that now i envy people with the gift of writing. who are able to express themselves with words.

phe. im hungry. good nighte.

Another blog

xiahua — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 13:16:09 +0000

Ugh.

I need another blog. I love WordPress and it’s so much easier to work with than Blogspot however as I mentioned on my earlier posts that this blog is under someone elses alas+name and I really don’t want to bother with it later on.

Can’t think of a name either. I would use my HS screename and such but it’ll get too obvious and I do want to avoid some people finding out.

Eeeeeek. I hate thissss.

Oh! Today I went to the library. Megaaaa big. It was super luxurious
and much more extravagant than the pathetic local libraries you see in America.

It’s really nice to study at… specially when you have exams coming up! Separate study rooms for sexes… Which is bad if you think about it cuz why else would you go to a library study room? To see hot guys of course! but if you really want to study it’s nice indeed. Surrounded by competitive, super ugly Korean girls all wearing PJ’s and working super hard… oh joy!

Reminds me… I need to study some more… I think I was vey determined today cuz I bleed out of my fucking nose and kept studying regardless YEAH!!

Oh yeah, I need some mulllaahs. I want to go shopping finally! I haven’t been in ages… and it’s not like I have my parents here to support my spending so everything sucks.

Berkeley here I goooo~
I miss home.

You hurt me and I’m sad

xiahua — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 16:48:23 +0000

This was such a emo post so I’m erasing it. OMG. I so hate relationships sometimes! Specially the long-term ones.. like you get so attached to the people.. on top of that you start abusing them coz you think they aren’t ever going to betray you or leave you.

Stupid girls and stupid guys. FCUK.

Dazed

xiahua — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 09:00:58 +0000

I in a love and hate relationship with my boss.

He’s a great person and all but FCUK! why does he always procrastinate around my pay-day?! Ugh! Whatever! at least this week he transferred some money in without having me text/call him.

On a happier note, I finally paid off my loans and saved up to $2K in my bank! Much progress from 8 months ago when I had $1.5K in. AHAHAHA. I’m such a looser.

-super sigh-
I have a student coming over in less than an hour. I didn’t plan anything for today… I don’t know what else I’m suppose to teach him! It’s evident that I’m not much of an English teacher! Look at my poor writing and elementary styled vocabulary! >:D<

What am I suppose to do? I do feel bad taking their money when I’m just blowing off time with the kid just for the cash. Ieruno. I need to improve.

P.S. – The kid obviously knows I’m not opt for this job but he keeps insisting on completing his studies with me until I leave back for the States. I don’t gets Sometimes I feel like he just feels sorry for me or something but I know his parents are quite Scrooge-like so wouldn’t bother spending so much money on a useless teacher like me! I don’t come off cheap either. ARGH. Maybe just the dad has some kinda weird morals. FML.

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xiahua — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 13:54:55 +0000

I had to delete some of my posts for it got a little too personal I guess.

Wooo. A little update! I got a package from America not so long ago. Ma sent me some nice christmas cookies & chocolates. Total love! I can hear my fat growing now YAY!

On top of that! I got some nice goodies from MUA (www.makeupalley.com) eeechi much? My God, I’m adopting Korean trend words now…): I love getting nice parcels in my mail box. Lol.

Nothing really interesting for me… having some chronic constipation and shit like that. Baaa! I hope that I get better and all healthy wise.. I’m too young to go through anything tragic like that. Reminds me… I want to do something good.. ieruno. I haven’t been the best person lately, maybe help someone less fortunate.. hmmm. Got lots to think about.

Relationships.

xiahua — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 09:14:01 +0000

I been thinking… how blind we are while we are in a relationship. Specially when your at a point in your life where you think there is nothing to live for (More like when you are in your early 20′s and your career isn’t going anywhere and you have too much time on your hand). You start revolving your whole life around them.

We want to believe that the person is your one and only… “The One” but is it just our imagination? Are we fabricating the idea and feeding it to ourselves just so we can have an excuse? What’s love… what is a relationship?

Ohno Satoshi’s Marijuana incident.

xiahua — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 04:28:13 +0000

Hahaha. I found a old article from Shuukan Gendai and couldn’t help but post up the photos. I remember being in a total shock over this.

The whole controversy over Ohno Satoshi’s scandal with Marijuana last year (July, 2008)… but frankly speaking look at him! He looks so high off his cute self. & OMG! Lucky girl getting fondled by his hands. Lao. It was said that he had sexual encounters with both of the women too. -tears- He looks so happy rubbing up on the tramps ass. ):

Oii in actuality the scandalous photos were taken back in 2005 and Ohno denied all allegations. He even said that the photos were photoshopped… LOL! Leader is so damn cute… everyone can forgive him.

Taiwan.

xiahua — Fri, 29 May 2009 09:12:53 +0000

I’m thinking of planning a trip to Taiwan. (I don’t know why Taiwan. I just picked random country off of map)

I’m on a bit of budget though. ): I have to give $150 to my boyfriend for his exams. & Another $250 to my mum for her ‘bo-yak’ (like a traditional chinese/korean/asian medicine made out of ginger roots and such). The actual cost for the thing is like $1000+ I say she just stop by the hospital and stop being so asian about it. Her insurance will cover the damn thing I don’t know what’s wrong.

And then there’s my bills. Phone bill was over $100 ’cause I called overseas couple times. What the hell seriously! It was only like 2 hours… I don’t get it! Ugh. What else… I can’t even think of. Oh, yeah… my stupid internet fees. Hmm… now that I think about it I don’t spend that much money on the things that actually matter… all my money goes to pampering myself. I should stop eating so much expensive foods I’m getting fat. Okie. I made my decision, I’m starting a strict diet plan! Starting…. tomorrow. Kyahah. I don’t know what about it. I will do it.

One thing before I sign off. I fucking hate old people! So mean and rude. Gaaah! They don’t know when people are being considerate or not. They think just ’cause they are like 100000000 million year old they know everything! If someone is being nice to you, you should apperciate it! Not think it’s obligated. Geeez.

Funds for my trip to Taiwan: 0.

Lovers quarrels (Part 1).

xiahua — Thu, 28 May 2009 04:32:08 +0000

Two months into our relationship I found out that my current boyfriend was talking mad crap about me. I can’t say I don’t blame him for it since I was a total neruatic bitch to him.

Reason why? I was afraid… he seems too good to be true! & tssk! I was right!

But, even after finding this out I didn’t want to end the relationship with him. I thought that it was too soon, that I should wait for the right time. (The actual reason why I didn’t end things sooner was because he was buying me a new phone! and I thought I should get that before I leave the sucker! Ha!)

Other things that happened during the process of waiting:

- He was bragging about how amazing he was and that he had 5 other girls lined up after me.

- He had pornographic materials that featured his ugly and mind I say very hairy *ahem* ex-girlfriend.

- Lied to me about throwing his ex-girlfriends stuff away and purposely hiding it in another closet far from his room.

Anyway, the funny thing was more then 80% invovled his ex-girlfriend whom he supposely hated and dumped. Logically speaking I say that he wasn’t over her. So we had our fits, I confronted him… broke up with him resulting in him getting on his knees and begging for me to stay with him. & After a while him folking over $600 usd in to a pretty little ring.

Then I find out that everything he said and did was to get me jealous. That he was scared and was afraid that I didn’t have any feelings for him. Because I acted so oblivious to the situations(In his opinion). Turns out his ex was the one who was always messaging him and calling him from the beginning. Asking questions like — “Did you sleep with her?”, “I understand it’s hard for you tell me since I was your first and all”, etc. & More then half the times my boyfriend just ignored her.

I heard that when my boyfriend had another girlfriend(before me)… let’s just call her J and that crazy hairy ape came to his house unannounced trying to show dominance over my boyfriend. Talking about their past memmories… ordering him around infront of J making her totally furious. & My boyfriend just being there and confused had to force her out of the damn door!

Overall… it took me a while to trust my boyfriend again. He had to go through hell until I treated him decent. Even made him get on his knees and lick my new prada shoes at the airport! Just because I can.